I started reading a book by Geneen Roth called, Women, Food, and God a couple of days ago. I got the book from the library after reading about it on a blog called, Can You Stay For Dinner?. I like the blog - she lost 135 pounds and has kept it off. AND she eats real and good food! Anyway, back to the book. Right away, I knew that I wasn't going to be able to identify with Ms. Roth, especially about her idea of God. She wrote, "I don't believe in the God with long white hair and X-ray vision that favors some people, some countries, some religions and not others. I don't believe in the sky dweller, the knower of all things, the granter of prayers. But I do believe in the world beyond appearances and that there is so much we can't see or touch or know just by looking. " There are a lot of great, usable points she makes in her book. We both do agree that we must seek a connection with divinity. But I see God very differently. I believe God to be my loving Heavenly Father. Someone who cares about me and whether or not I'm healthy, happy and safe as much as my earthly parents do. Someone who knows me well and is probably a little amused and annoyed that I haven't asked for help. See, just like my boys, I "want to do it myself." and being prideful isn't anything new for me.
So I've been thinking a lot about my connection with Divinity. I pray. I pray by myself and with my boys. I'm usually praying to have patience with my boys. But my prayers usually focus on others, especially my family. It's not because of my giving nature - but we can pretend that it is. Sometimes it just feels selfish to ask for so much help instead of being grateful for all the wonderful things in my life.
In Matthew 7:7-11 it reads,
7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
8 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.11 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?
I have gotten advice from friends and family. I have read books and articles. I have sought advice from my doctor and people knowledgeable about exercise and healthy bodies. My Heavenly Father wants to help me to be healthy and show respect for this body He made possible. I just need to ask. I'm supposed to ask. He wants me to ask.