First of all, I want to thank so many friends for their kind words. I was feeling very low last week. I was feeling out of control in my eating and ashamed for that lack of control and for not being able to snap myself out of it. I do know I'm human. Everybody makes mistakes or has lapses.
You don't get to look like me with occasional bad weeks, however. This is a pattern I've created. It's pretty sad to think about all the time I've spent on becoming what I never wanted. Isn't that crazy?
We humans are interesting.
We humans are complicated.
We humans are messy.
The great thing is, that we humans are strong.
And, luckily for me, we humans can change.
That's what is so wonderful. In the midst of all the mess, all the anger, all the sadness, all the shame, we still can catch a glimmer of hope. When it's dark, even a glimmer is bright enough to start moving toward. And we can hope that it's not the light from an oncoming train.
Needless to say, I've still got a lot of work to do. I'll just keep on with the keeping on. I was serious about thinking I need therapy. I'm looking into that.
Lobster took us on an impromptu weekend trip to Portland and to OMSI (Oregon Museum of Science and Industry) yesterday. Because of that, my Sunday Stats will be incomplete this week. I wasn't home this morning to weigh myself, and I forgot to do it yesterday. I do feel as though I recovered a bit of control. I'm just going to try to build on that.
I also tried a new workout. I downloaded the demo of Kinect's Zumba Rush and was able to last about 15 minutes. I ended up buying the game and I really look forward to being able to finish a workout and actually keep up with the instructor. It was a lot of fun. I don't usually say that about a workout. Once I get my feet moving fast enough and feel like I can complete a routine, I think I'll attend a Zumba class at the Y. I can imagine more people around you would make it that much more fun. For now, though, I'll be doing it in the privacy of my family room. Where I can pretend I know how to dance.
I'm going to leave you with this quote that I found on Pinterest.
WEIGHT GAIN/LOSS: Unknown
TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS: 24 lbs-ish
EXERCISE: 2 Water Fitness classes (50 minutes), 1 Kinect Zumba home workout (15 minutes)
FOOD: Felt better in control, better food choices - lots of fruits & veggies.
FOOD TRACKING: 4 partial days of 7
HYDRATION: Not great